Here I am, pouring my heart onto these rooftops,

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 07:02:09 GMT

alright I'm done.

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 18:34:17 GMT

hmmmm... God is urinating... he must seriously have some sort of bladder problem cuz it's been going on for a week now. damn it too wet for offroading... can't go surfing...too cold...well then this weekend we're headed to Mammoth or what not for snowboardin cuz that's the only reasonable way to beat this boredom. new, fresh snow... hehehe time to go eat my Mac n Cheese! :p

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 21:35:23 GMT

i accidentally deleted my picture...oh well. i was changing my colors (cuz i can't resist the pink) and i deleted it. don't ask why or how. cuz i don't know. but on the up side, my colors are pretty! :)

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 21:32:58 GMT

Something has been taken from deep inside of me. A secret I’ve kept locked away, no one can ever see. Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away. Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played. It's easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb. It's so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone. Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past. Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have. Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back. And never moving forward so there would never be a past. Just washing it aside, all of the helplessness inside; pretending I don't feel misplaced is so much simpler than change. If I could change I would. Take back the pain I would. Retrace every wrong move that I made I would. If I could stand up and take the blame I would. I would take all the shame to the grave....

update

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 18:40:18 GMT

how's my break so far?

-hangovers...suck
-driving that beautiful mercedes conertible that some of us ahem recieve for christmas cuz theyre so goddamn spoiled. but i am grateful they are willing to share the joys of driving it. ;]
-offroading at night is quite the experience. let me tell you. fun. yet very dangerous.... but so much goddamn fun!
-hooka tonight....mmmm fruity!

then i don't know what else movie's on saturday. yah yah i know i know im Christmas but who cares? they said it's ok. or i might just NOT go and spend time with the family... yah that sounds like fun.... all in all, break is going by way to fast.

Break Away

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 18:31:06 GMT

I'm sick of this place...

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But, when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget of the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

kn kn kn kn KNOTTS...knott's BerRY FARM!

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 02:29:35 GMT

Silver Bullet? it's the best roller coaster ever. I love roller coasters.

CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 16:07:16 GMT

fuck. if anybody knows the order of the geometry notebook PLEASE let me know! otherwise i'm gonna fail that class with a very low F.

*Derek, you will always be in our hearts. I believe in you and I know you can pull through. I love you. We all do. You are the best guy I've ever met you've taught me so much. If you leave now I think we're all gonna be lost without you. I LOVE YOU DEREK! HANG IN THERE! YOU CAN DO IT! (you pulled through once, you can do it again)*

((My secret love))

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 22:47:08 GMT

Don't worry, you'll know who you are soon enough.

Jackie and Josie....keep guessing my dickies, keep guessing. :}
oh yah, and ASK YOUR GODDAMN MOTHER! i changed the day to NEXT SATURDAY! DECEMBER 11!

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 02:27:03 GMT

counting stars.

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 17:20:05 GMT

My lj wedding by chynafox
username
age
city
you will marry	s2ureturtles2
flower girl	josie_grosie
best man	wuda_tragic_end
bridesmaid	baybeepatters
you will have your last fling with	sexy_jacko
registrar	pyr0maniac
secretly wants to marry you themself	x_there_is
date of the wedding	February 28, 2010
number of times you do it on your wedding night	38

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Niaz's Birthday

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 04:50:59 GMT

ok so on saturday my dear friend Niaz Farighi's 15 birthday and party.
I got there and we ate then sucked up the helium balloons and sounded all fucked up.
Then I got mummified in streamers and then we decided to run down Niaz's street and yah people started staring at us but I think that might've been because I was still covered in streamers and Neeloufar shouted "LET'S GO STREAKING!"
haha
then we go back and and I did Jackie and Josie's makeup they looked quite baeutiful. ;] Then we watched Along Came Polly and Jackie kept on sharting. =/
after the movie we ate the cake and Niaz opened her presents haha my cousins were embarrassed of their gift and so they wanted to hide in the closet and I hid with them cuz my gift was part of theirs. We had a jolly old time in the closet. ;] with that fly swatter.
ok so then it was dancing time and us asians didn't know how to persian dance with the acception of Jackie. 0.0 ooh lala. (I'm still workin on it someday my tummy will be alive just like yours.) haha Jackie, Josie, Kathleen and I hid in the bathroom and we saw this button and decided to press it together so that if it was like an alarm, we would all get in trouble together. we didn't think it did anything until Niaz cam up and asked us about it. =)
ok here's the good part we go back downstairs and I wanted to go into the backyard. We went out barefoot and her mom told us to go back and get our shoes and stuff so we go them and when I went back, I RAN RIGHT INTO THE SCREEN DOOR! it popped out along with me while i was still running.
hahahahahaha ooooooooooooooooohh man. if that's not blonde I don't know what is.
so after that little "incident" we played limbo and I never knew I was that flexible. =P After limbo and twister we played cards and I am I master of "SPEED" anyone dare to challenge me it's on. haha oh and the animal game was quite fun too.
so I went home at ll and yah. It was kinda too early I wanted to stay longer. oh well I had fun. :]

I'll put pictures in once I can figure out how to do so. :}

oh yah and Niaz, that is one fancy little toilet you got there. It is quite spiffy. =}

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 05:06:50 GMT

hehehehe.....

I have a headache. time to change my colors once again. i have a idea for new colors that will be the BOMBDIGGITY!
hahaha

i love you all!

Can't do this anymore, won't feel you anymore...

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 03:03:04 GMT

been a little on the down side lately. can't wait for christmas, ;] nothing else to say. i feel weird. yep yep. my new color kick some hardcore ass. i need to get me a new picture onto this thing. Like i said, i have a myspace although i see absolutely NO POINT in having one. but oh well.

*taps foot impatiently*

school is bad.

home is bad.

life is bad.

PMS? i think not. i would know if it is.
remind me again what there is to look forward to? oh. ha. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING? that's what i thought. I need to stop now. I need to stop acting like a brat. I feel like I'm complaining too much of things that even I don't know of.

*note to self*
RENT WELCOME TO THE DOLLHOUSE SO THAT BRITTANY CUMBUSH WON'T KILL ME!

i found a lizard today at practice. I was about to serve with it on my raquet but i'm not THAT cruel. that was the highlight of my day.Then Jackie got me all wet. ;]

i'm out.

PEACE. \\//

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 14:56:17 GMT

UGH! why is my voice so gay? ew i sound all... gross.

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 15:48:32 GMT

Asking myself the question what is it that I want and what is it that I need?

"So get back, back, back to the disaster, my heart's beating faster, holding on to feel the same. This may never start, we could fall apart, and I'd be your memory..."

Whatever I am happy with I will keep.

But then again, how could I not be content with where I am now? I can't ask for more at the moment. I don't know what I'm so sad about.

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 07:17:49 GMT

I wanted to go trick or treating but something came up. I'm just gonna tell you i got in a car crash. That's part of what happened. I got like, whiplash and now my neck hurts.

my cousins turned 15 last week. congragulations. I LOVE YOU GUYS!

i erased my homeowork off of my computer. now i have to start all over again but i really dont feel like it. im kinda mad.

i now have a myspace so to those of you who kept badgering me to get one...I GOT ONE! now i'll add you as a friend. happy? damn you people need to get lives.....i need a life. hahah MY COUSINS ARE MY LIFE!
SODOMY FOR LIFE!

Lisa is turning 15 in 2 days.
KEEP THAT IN MIND BITCHES!

that's all for now i think im gonna go to sleep now so that i can get to school early tomorrow. dude this morning i woke up and hour early cuz i didn't bother to change my clock, and so i got all panicky. i got ready in 20 minutes and then when i was done i turned on the T.V. and it was only 7:00 A.M. WTF!!!! ok bye now! *muah*

...

I'm fat.

Homecoming is tomorrow.

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 03:09:05 GMT

If you're reading this and you see me tomorrow, please don't be alarmed if I look even more disgusting than I usually do. I hope everyone who goes will have a good time.

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 02:41:05 GMT

ok, I. HATE. my dress! I'm gonna look SO bad on homecoming night. :[

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 05:14:48 GMT

I don't know if you know this, but I can see right through you. You're just an act.

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 06:04:24 GMT

Feelings starting to fade. I'm not sure why. I'm sorry. Lately, whenever we talk I get the feeling that you dont respect me. I thought things were cool between us again. I thought we were past all this drama. I know I'm younger than you but please don't belittle me. I'm not mad at you anymore, isn't that enough? I have very little respect for you at the moment,and if you don't change, I'm afraid you're gonna lose me. No one is perfect. I want you to realize that. You are being so arrogant and you're not the same person that I respected when we first met; or maybe this is the real you and the more I know about you, the less I like. I get the impression that you are a fake. You know how much I don't like people like that. You seem dishonest to me. I could be wrong. I hope I'm wrong. For the first time ever, I would just rather be blinded by what's not true. The truth just hurts me too much, but I guess I still have to face it. No matter how much anybody tries to deny the truth, they're still gonna have to deal with it in the end.
I just wanted you to know about this for your own sake. I'm not going to try and change you, its not my part to do that; it's yours. I want you to open your eyes. Please consider what I said, and remember that I really care about you and I'm only telling you this so you can change for your own sake. But...it's up to you. And... I really do hope you know who you are.

Homecoming is going to be off the heezy yo!....? :D

Dresses needed for these upcoming events:
-Homecoming (check)
-banquet
-Dr. Jorgan's birthday.

Danny needs a massage from a man. So therefore, you can go to TU MADRE!! hahaha I promise not to get too high of heels. You're going to be wearing a red rose on your shirt. You're gonna be so pretty. You gaylord. hehehe 0:]

Thank you Crystal, I appreciate your company, you're right, he's not worth crying over. No offense, but then again, look at what he did to me....haha..*laughs it off*.....*not successful* im sorry, i just cant get over it.

ew.

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 23:23:54 GMT

it is time to get rid of these dark ugly colors.

It's not over till it's over.

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 15:04:05 GMT

Obviously things haven't been working out.
It won't be long before we have to say our final good-byes. I'm hoping that day will never have to come. Hoping that things will get better. They will. Won't they?

I dont know why you're doing this to me in a time like this. I thought you were the only one who could understand me but it seems that you're avoiding me. You're the only one I can turn to for help and relate to. Please. Don't do this to me. I need your help.

"I dont want you to give it all up, and leave your own life collecting dust, and i don't want you to feel sorry for me. It never gave us a chance to be. Now i need you you to tell me the truth you know I'd do that for you....So why are you running away?..."

Tennis sucks. I can't wait till it's over.

Thanks Abner and Danny for coming down.

I hate life at the moment.

Trust Is Essential

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 06:08:42 GMT

I think I know the truth now.
I am content with it.
Moving on...

We lost our game against University. 18 points possible. Our score? 1-17
piTITful I know. I played against a slut. No seriously. She was so frikin tall too. I felt like a midget. Oh and I am no longer number one on the team. Courtney is. Although she should be on Varsity, Will is an ass and she's back on JV. So I'm back to being number two. eh whatever.

I am now the bathroom race champion.

I. HATE. WILL.
WILL. MUST. DIE.
TENNIS. IS. GAY.

You people need to come and support me, esPECIALLY, on OCTOBER 14 that is our most important match against Villa Park. BOooooOOOO VP! SORRY to JEREMY from VP the one with the tennis xanga if you're reading this. But you know the concept. Canyon, VP, we don't mix. We play Villa Park next Tuesday. That is our first game of the season. I'm excited. Ok, anyone from the tennis team reading this, it is time to start kickin some major ass. This season has been embarrassing so far.
Misa I will forever taunt you for today. haha walking all the way there with that cooler. hahaha you too Kay you were with her.

I was asked an odd question today...the answer? uhhh no. not really. no.

hehehe Josie? good job, good job, eeeeeexcellent!

an ok day

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 02:18:07 GMT

the only good part about today was the race.

*Results*
!!ME!!~FIRST FIRST FIRST!
josie:she lost.(one more loss to me and you lose your championship title!)

still confused but not really, things are clearing up.